I’m a fast thinker, but I need some time for reflection.
I’m a hard worker, but I need some time for rest.
I’m a good cook, but I need time to plan and shop and prepare.
I’m a influential person, but I can’t influence everything because I can’t be everywhere and talk to everyone.
I’m an active person, but I can’t be at every meeting I need to attend.
I’m a good writer and speaker, but I can’t prepare a piece without time for reflection, time to think and then time to create.
I can’t do all of it. I can’t make all the deadlines. I can’t get done everything I want to do. I can’t enjoy life when I’m working this hard.
Something has got to give. This morning I wish that I could check in to the hospital for “exhaustion.” I’ve been here before. And every time I wonder what it is those starlets say to the doctor to get them to write the order. People in my life say either:
1) Well, nobody is going to schedule self-care or a break for you except you, so when are you going to do it?
or
2) So. are you going to get that done (be at that meeting, etc.) before you go then?
At times like these I really think I want someone to come in and say: “You don’t need to do this, this or this. I’ll make the phone calls and let them know you won’t be there. Go take a nap/bath/vacation.”
I feel my rope stretching and fraying. But I look at my calendar and honestly do not see where I can cancel or cut back. Committments are important to me. I’ve made too many of them but now I’m stuck and I have to ride the rapids until I’m through.
I just don’t know if I can hang on through the chute this time.
— — — A year ago (or longer) on This Journey…
Annunciation 2008Charmed Life 2007
